I took a big ol’ break from writing while on vacation last week. There were days and days of not writing; like, four of them in a row.
I thought not writing for a little bit was a good idea.
I thought I’d use my time to go for a walk or fourteen in the sun. To spend dedicated time with Greg. To eat pizza from a brick oven and fresh pasta with pesto sauce.
I thought I’d unplug and rest.
I thought wrong.
Truth be told, I didn’t much like not writing. It kind of sucked. And, in combination with missing my kids, it made me a teensy, tiny bit crazy. Like, nuts. Like, out of my head. Like irritable and grouchy and short-tempered like I often am, but without my writing pressure-release valve. Like, Greg didn’t ship me across the ocean on the first available sea barge but only because he’s nice to me in ways I don’t earn (and also probably a little bit because I offer him seven fabulous minutes every now and then).
It turns out, I need to write to dislodge the clogs that build up in my head. Like a chimney sweep with a big, bristly brush, I need to push through the dark toward the light, even those I know something messy will undoubtedly fall out.
I also missed writing because of all of you who admit you’re traveling the Crazy Road with me. I missed having you in my head to remind me that the insanity is normal so we can debunk the pressure of perfection together. I realize now that I’m home that I find my most authentic Village in the land of confessed imperfection, and I miss this home when I’m away.
So I wrote today in between bouts of caring for a sick kid. The writing felt good. The sick kid is getting better. And I have new posts coming soon. Tomorrow, I think.
Bear with me for a little bit longer while I poke around in my head. And thanks for hanging in there with me.
More soon.
xo,
Beth
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P.S. You can thank me later for changing my chimney analogy from a zit analogy. I did it because I like you. And because I didn’t want you to ralph on your computer.
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One again, your words ‘hit the spot’. I have often thought that a chimney-sweep-type brush would be effective in cleaning out a stubborn zit, messy brain, out stubborn head cold….
Not the point? Er, welcome back? Glad , that the profusion of writing helps you AND that you got a chance to ‘ hold hands’ with Greg for a bit without kids interrupting. Sorry that sickness hung around to welcome you when you got home. And now I must try to go back to sleep and dream of chimney brushes in the hopes that it will clean out my sinuses by morning.
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*Once again…. *stubborn head cold….
Sorry, periods of my ”Swype” keypad and typing one handed on my phone.
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HA! I clearly could’ve used my soupy zit analogy w/ you Terri.
Love.
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I know exactly what you mean! Recently I adjusted my work schedule to 4 10 hour days so I could spend Friday writing. I can’t believe how much better I feel! I also can’t believe that I used to go for months without writing ANYTHING…no wonder I was so cranky
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EXACTLY.
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Ha! Thanks so much for changing the analogy. I am, in fact, eating my breakfast while reading my fave blogs. ( ;
I get the writing thing. I get the missing kids thing. I hope you also have amazing memories from when you were away, but glad you’re back.
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Although I’m sure your breakfast would’ve been improved by my zit analogy, I’m glad I preserved your keyboard.
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I haven’t checked in in awhile. Where did you go on vacay?
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Oh my gosh. LONGEST STORY EVER. We didn’t go where we intended to go because Cael started throwing up on Mother’s Day, about 8 hours before we were supposed to leave. We delayed our trip by 2 days to be with our sick kiddo, and thanks to many accommodating friends/family and plane tickets via my dad, we put together an amazing trip that lasted 6 days. If I can find some emotional wherewithal, I’ll write it out.
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I just have to say, you’re hilarious! (And I’m so glad you chose the chimney sweep analogy instead!) Welcome home!
~Sharon
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Hehe! My pleasure!
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Funny, and thanks for not makin’ me ralph not my laptop, I can afford a new one if this one shorts out! I’m glad started following you.
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Me, too, Sonja. Welcome here!
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